what a bloody good time to fall sick.
damn.
no progress in revisions for exams... and just when i am going to sit down and really start studying, i fall sick.
ARGH! i feel lethargic.
gonna catch some slp.

dreams factory - where your desired dreams come true with effort, time and determination.

i fear i might go into depression.
i am scared.
second day of tears and fear.
fear is engulfing me.
swallowing me into its darkness, where i dont see hope.

i dont know what to do
what wrong am i in

what i say is wrong, what i dont say is also wrong
what i do is wrong, what i dont do is also wrong
tell me how can i satisfy you.
tell me what can i do to satisfy you.

in your eyes, i am just the biggest mistake
i am just a liability
i am just nothing.

i think i need help.
but there's none.

please help me find positivity back before everything just collapse.

emotional breakdown.
the tears i've cried... enough to fill a bucket. literally.
i don't know what wrong am i in?
i don't what to do now...
all i know is,
there is only one me... i cannot be two place at i time.
i have commitments... and there is more to come.
i am no longer the girl with no dreams, no aim, nothing in life.
i found the person i want to be with, the dreams i want to achieve.
i cannot be 24/7 with you anymore, but that does not mean i don't care for you anymore.
if you think the way it is... there is nothing i can say.
but just ask yourself, how many times in my life did you really care for me.
in my eyes, what you care for was your "face" and everything else.
... i don't know how to carry on. its like a knife in the heart, painful.

what i am today, don't blame me,
because you made me this way.

its hard trying to fight to be positive.
only being optimistic can bring me to where i want to be.
but its hard fighting when wave of depression hits you stronger everytime.
i will try and be positive. its the only way out.

i still cannot post photos.
sian.

i'm fighting real hard.
for perfection.
for what i want to achieve.
for our dreams.
for our future.
and lastly for what i think is the opportunity for everything i want in life.

putting dreams into reality is hard,
but at least we've tried.
baby, its our fight for what we want.

fuck.
is it my blogger or others are experiencing the same problem.
i cannot load my photos!

DAMN

the things i really want is so simple
but why is everyone against it?

is it my problem or theirs?
it seems like i am fighting a battle alone.
where everything seems to be gg against you

some long overdued photos.

14/03/09 - clubbing: the day i got scared by that fake Beyonce






cam-whoring gone wrong.


haha.


thats the scary ass in the middle
its a pity i couldn't get a front view of her.
but that face will be forever etched in my head. DAMN!

random ones which i cannot remember when i taken them





21/03/09 - Bukit Timah Hike


i don't like that sinister smile


look at that reflection.
the bag i am carrying weighs a freaking 7kg.


monkey business


on the summit.
but thats not the end of the journey.
it was followed by trekking into the woods where i kept complaining about dirtying my shoes.
and it made my legs wobble for days... muscle ache


monkey with baby.


sometimes i wonder what are they digging from each other's back?


train passing-by... it was loud...


RAINBOW!!!

22/03/09 - Suntec City : shopaholics don't rest even when their legs are aching from the trekking the day before


the sunset was nice.


and when one take photo, the rest follow. HAHA.
monkey see, monkey do.

will post more...
B'Day Pictures coming soon...